Stars

I want to pluck stars... 开心。。。

Cheers
ZJ
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Disappointed

Disappointed and pissed.

Found out things were done half past six. WHY? Why cant people do stuff swee swee right from the start??? Why must people give slipshod work? Want to slack also must slack cleverly. Dont do geh-zhua stuff, but must at least cover bare minimum right? Its our work afterall! Haiz...

There was suddenly an issue of NOT ABLE TO GO TO LESSONS. Pissed off. I have lab tml and I am not going to care about what that guy said. Told Ed abt lab and was given the green light to siam. Well, good news is that I realised I have no bio lab after checking IVLE, so I can siam later. Bad news, I still have PC lab. Sonometer. Argh...

Came back room, realised that I still have 1142 last question yet to be done. Dateline is 1am later. Managed to get the answer, but alas! MasteringPhysics site down. Cant submit answer! Piss! Although I had printed screen to save my ass, but it is still something that bugs me and not off my mind...

Then I open my mail and saw the dreadful mail... 42 results are out. I went to checked. 57%. I sort of expected such sucky results, but cant help feeling damn sad. Then I thought of what big boss said moments earlier, felt even more pissed. Thought of the file that contains the terms-and-conditions above me, felt so pissed and stressed.

Sat down. Realised I have a bio assignment... Wrong.. TWO bio assignment due on friday. Tml not gonna have much chance to do work. So its NOW!

Msn popped up a mesasge from WK. "I have sent you the files. Can you get it done by friday?" I have no choice but to say yes. Project due on 1 NOV. I cant let my members down. ARgh.. Hook or crook...

Murphy's Law. Oh, I should go to comm hall to take a copy of the poem on Student's Life... Nice.. APT.

no Cheers...
ZJ
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Ladies and gentlemen, WELCOME to MY show. Oh, I mean, HA Ha, THE show... My my my my my... What an irony... My my my my my... What a scene. My my my my my.

Gonna miss tutorials and lectures this week! I hate it! I want to catch up with my work! AR!!! Trying hard... 发粪涂墙！！！！

Cheers
ZJ
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Random Thoughts 17/10/2006

Liking someone os no about holding on or possessing. Its about giving happiness to her.

Happy doesnt means solely that one is happy oneself. Its about feeling happy when one see the smile on her face.

Good friend is not one who just appear when there is good times. Its about caring all along and lending a shoulder when there is a need.

Cheers
ZJ
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我的心好亂



任何事情都要讲天时地利人和。。。 为何？？？

I want to disappear into the background... I dont know what I want.

Stress. 1142 test coming up. I hate this... Hope I dont screw it up big time...

Cheers
ZJ
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Random

Blasting music. Staring blankly. Dazed.

Strumming guitar. Screaming a song. Let it go.

Closed eyes. Images form. Wander.

Douse in water. Cold. Clear.

ZJ
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我的心太乱



我的心太乱。。。为什么时间似乎过得这么缓慢。。。

Its just a feeling... Time really pass so slowly. Its only 12th OCT... A very nice date supposedly... But it seemed like ages...

Still struggling with 1142... I just cant get thermodynamics right. Pissed off... Optics seems easier. Glad...

我的心太乱。。。 Think I will stay over in hall again this weekend...

Cheers
ZJ
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Friends

I douse myself in the shower. Some time has passed. Some things have changed. Some things have surfaced. My friends? Reality? Image is getting clearer, and blurer at the same time. I douse myself in the shower...

ZJ
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我们的纪念日



A nice song... Well written... I was really happy.

Thanx...
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寂寞

寂寞是什么？我认为寂寞是一个巨大无比的力量。而且，这力量若隐若现，时有时无，变换繁多，不可预料。不只，他诡计多端，常在一个人最脆弱的时候出现，下手，至上夺命的一掌。

但，寂寞也是一个良友。有些人在繁忙的生活里，就是想寻找一点空间。寂寞对他们来说是幸福，是解脱。

Facing 4 walls, sitting down, staring. Inevitably, the world seemed to be swirling, everything seems to be spinning towards something... The mind starts to wander. The power. It is here.

Searching for something to fill up this space. Anything goes. Keeping a rationale mind at the same time. Think what FQ said was so right. Searching for things to fill up this space, if not, everything will spiral inwards, everything will collapse. There will be no way out. You will only get deeper and deeper in. It is almost impossible to get out of it.

I need to occupy myself. There is so much things to do, but there is so little time. There is so much things to do, but there is so much inertia. There is so little time for me to occupy, yet the mind managed to take over some of these precious time. This would only end up in a vicious cycle. Mental. Live life to the fullest? Thats my motto... I have to fulfil it. Never to live with regrets. Thats my slogan. Just do it.

Enough of 寂寞。。。Recently, seen some friends who are spiralling downwards. Worry for them. Mental wise, they have to be strong. Maybe I am too/over sensitive, but I have seen some subtle actions that points towards a direction, but they are forcing themselves to go against it. Its painful, but there is nothing much I can do... Perhaps I can occupy their time? A couple are struggling with school work. I am too in fact... Its a really worrying sight. I understand the stress they are under. CAP pressure. They have to be strong to overcome the initial setback and pull themselves together. Study groups and friends always helps a lot. Really must thank GC for all his aid. Without him, I think I would be crying now... Hope to extend my helping hand to WH in similiar manner... We will pull through bro...

Cheers
ZJ
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Chided

Talked to an old friend/ buddy. Talk? Perhaps it aint exactly a apt term to use. It was a short exchange of words. I guess we arent in the best of moods. I understands that she is busy, and so am I... but, never did I expect her to say something like that... Felt really sad that TY actually said such stuff... I really wanted to have a nice chat with her, some stuff to tell her too abt the people I met recently.

I dont think I am gonna nudge her any time soon...

Cheers
ZJ
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First Test in Uni

Just had my first test in university. It was not exactly VERY bad, but I lost the "feeling" of mastering the subject... Felt so irritated and dejected. Where was the touch and the "thiang" moment that I had last time?? ARgh... Dont think I will do too badly, but surely, its not up to my expectations. Well... This is supposed to be my BEST mod already, considering my other mods are filled with people with lotsa brain juice (much more than me...)

Feeling very low morale now concerning schoolwork. I need to spend much much more time on my school work to make up for the lack of talent in me... Things are all going at such a fast pace that I couldnt catch up at some point of time. I need to revise my 1141 soon. Quite glad that thermo had ended for 1142... Anything that is gonna be built on whats learnt now will be "cui"... I need some time... Hope optics will be better....

Time to sleep. I need some rest..

Cheers
ZJ
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孤单

我和姐前阵子在聊天时说到，一个人在人生可以有很多个朋友，但是知己有一两个也算满足了。当我似乎以为我找到了知己时，我发现到我错了。我突然感觉到我不太认识我身边的人，一切不知为何那么陌生，那么生疏，似乎是我头次见过。我突然对他们有了恐惧感，我很想脱离他们，我不敢再靠近了。。。

可能WJ说的没错。当你跟某某人好，你就会越容易对他们发脾气，感到反感。一个难以肆意的现象，但对我来说可是一个残酷的现象。。。 为什么？？？？

手机，冷冰冰的一片铁成天没响过。。。谁说孤单的夜里我不孤单？到底什么才是不孤单？我还在寻找。。。寻找发泄的办法，寻找不孤单的那条路。。。

Cheers
ZJ
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