A Journey

牛奶@咖啡 - 越长大越孤单

2010-03-15T15:28:00.002+08:00

对的人

2008-11-15T16:52:00.003+08:00

一首很有意思的歌。一首旋律优美的歌。一个清晰的嗓子。

Cheers
ZJ

天高地厚

2008-11-01T00:55:00.001+08:00

Got rather hooked to this song recently. Nice vocals, nice music. Nice lyrics. Soar...

Cheers
ZJ

Just My Imagination

2008-10-29T00:32:00.001+08:00

Love
ZJ

我的错

2008-10-15T09:17:00.004+08:00

I am so sorry dear for hurting you... I will learn to cope with myself and love you well. Love you always...

Love
Yam

Stress

2008-10-14T22:29:00.002+08:00

I feel so stress recently. Just feel like hiding in the room and cry.

Things seem to be falling apart. Gf feels I am not caring enough, studies just cant seem to get it right, shoulder and knee aching up. Trying my best to balance everything and get my priorities straight.

Guess I need a quiet night by myself and just stare at the ceiling...

Zhan

Gunung Stong

2008-06-19T19:02:00.003+08:00

This is kinda overdued but doesnt matter. Well, I came back from Gunung Stong aka Jelawang in Kelantan, Malaysia on Friday. It was one of the most enjoyable trips I have been to!

I signed up this trip not knowing anyone else in the group other than Xie Ren. He told me that Weili is supposedly on the trip as well but it seems otherwise. But, that doesnt matter.

I had to give the briefing a miss due to the @#$%^$@#& Scouts camp. Lets not bring it up. Its really disheartening that I gave up so many things for that @$#@$@#% event. Anyway, since I was absent from the breifing, I finally met my members on the day itself! How exciting. I realised that one of my group members was my batch NJCian, Ai Ling from SC. No wonder her name sounds soooo familiar. Well, we have a lao-jiao Charlene in our group to do all the shopping so... Ha =)

We took a long 10+ hrs train ride from JB KTM train station to Dabong town. It was the second time in my life that I sat on the jerky train ride WITH BED. Note: WITH BED. It was kinda fun, getting to know the people going on the trip.

First day at Dabong, we went caving. It wasnt as impressive as Gua Tempurung in Ipoh but it was quite cool as well. Always an experience. I quite like the feeling of being in a HUGE and SPACIOUS area, and having an opening above me with light coming through. It has the feel of those olden chinese fighting shows.

After lunch, we went on to proceed to base camp of Stong. Lo and behold, it started to rain but since this is a waterfall trek, who cares about getting wet!! The only sad thing is that we have to give up going up via the waterfall trail and take the jungle trail instead. It was quite treacherous and tough to a little extent, but very managable I feel. My bag was heavy due to the tent and the can foods (I was the only guy in the group...) but still very much managable compared to my Yong Yap experience.

Upon reaching base camp, we set up our tent! It was totally screwed up. The fly sheet cant seems to fit, water is coming in, rain pours etc. Sux. Very (or should I say Extremely) diappointed with the management for the poor logistics. 24 pax 3 tents. lOl. Of which, 1 totally sux. lOl x 2. Well, took a bath in the water at the fall with the rest of the guys. There is only one word to describe. SHIOK. At night, we started cooking and we were really lucky to have Wei Chuan as our cook. He was really good at it and never fail to impress us. Rebecca said a classic line "I didnt know instant noodle tasted so good...". From then on, she was labelled as our hungry ghost. At night, the girls were put up in the huts cos the tents were too "cui" to stay in. I went into one of the better tents with Shun Hua and Jizheng.

Second day was spent ascending to the summit and descending. The view and excitement of the summit is comparative to how brilliant I want this paragraph to be.

Day 3 was fun. Really fun. We went to the waterfallS behind the base camp. We jumped in at each waterfall and waded around in the water. We even tried out water rapelling! Really fun! No words can describe =)

only if Jasmine could come along...

Love
ZJ

Everytime

2008-06-19T18:40:00.002+08:00

Kept listening to this song today... Very nice. Reminds me of a lot of good times... Really miss you dear...

Love
ZJ

*I didnt really like the original MTV, so decided that this Rinoa version is not too bad too =)*

没有烟抽的日子

2008-06-19T18:09:00.004+08:00

Kinda emo these few days. Cant wait for Jasmine to be back. This week seems sooo long and Saturday just doent seems to come...

Waiting
ZJ

Wet Fun Exciting Ubin

2008-06-08T18:16:00.014+08:00

Yesterday, finally settled down to go ubin with KO, JH KH and Jon. Well, have been putting it off due to forecast of "poor weather". However, during the last time we put it off, the sun was sorching the whole day! Crap! Well, decided to disregard the "thunderstorm in late morning and early afternoon" forecast and "just do it" this time round. Seems like a wrong decision.

The day started off with nice weather until the moment we hit Tampines. Gosh! The sky started pouring! We got to Changi Village to have breakfast and settled down to playing ass-hole dai-dee. I still cant believe that this is the first time JH is exposed to the game! We waited for 2 hours efore the sky started clearing and we decided to go over to Ubin.

Well, day on Ubin started with boss being a boss and bargaining over the cost of the raincoat they bought. Its just damn Boss. Well, we set of for the west quarry immediately. The weather was still really wet during this point of time, but the worst is yet to be. At the most western tip, my tyre BURST! Not knowing the phone number of the bike shop, we had to help push my lousy spoilt bike all the way back to jetty. Thats like 4km? Pui.

Had lunch at First Stop. It was quite good. Started with some coconut!

Then, came my good-old horfan! 2 words: Humongous, Declicious.

After that we changed the bike and went on the the eastern trails of Ubin. Quite fun. It was quite a challenge going down (and up) those slippery mud trails. Any slip and it gonna be REAL messy. Well, it was kinda crazy at that point of time but felt quite glad that all of us escaped unscathed. I still remember my old bloody accident and also Andy's bad fall off the bend that left his whole leg bloody. Opps!

Went to the newly opened Chek Jawa area. Quite cool! Below is the rock where would make a perfect dating spot... And yes, Mr Sim is again at his Cool Poses.

The newly constructed boardwalk that brings us around the coast. There is another that goes through the swamp.

This is the newly constructed viewing tower that is at least 4 storeys high. Super shag to go on top of it.

Beautiful scenery from the top of it...

Finally, we went to Puaka Peak and we were treated with the most beautiful view of the day... 新州九寨沟！Managed to use my handphone camera to take a parannomic view of the top...

Ended the day after that... Had a really great day. Only that if Jas was around, it would have been much greater... Hope she is having fun over at Germany... Miss you... Back home. Kinda shag. Haha. It has been some time since I cycled... in the rain! =)

Buds of the day (in random order):

Concubine Tan.

VP Yee

Boss Sim

Mr Camera Thng!

Cheers

Exciting Friday

2008-06-06T21:13:00.004+08:00

Had quite an interesting day today. Well, went to swim with Siahjen and Kahonn at Jalan Basar Swimming Complex. Quite fun. Chatted with Siahjen while we tried to teach KO how to swim. KO seems to be progressing well! Good job. I also swam a couple of laps volunterily today. Well, felt quite ok and comfortable. Quite happy. Gaining confidence slowly.

After that, finally went down to sign up for 2 star kayaking! Hope it will be an interesting crowd. Looking forward to it.

After that came ack to Clementi for KTV with KO and FQ. Quite interesting too! First time since very very long that I had a chance to go for a CHINESE KTV. Haha. Missed those days. Really enjoyed the songs though our singing kinda sux.

We came back hall and there was another food tasting! Well, food tasting = free dinner. This caterer seems quite decent. I dont mind them serving me next 2 years. Its always worth a try. Change is good sometimes. But I am more or less ok with food so... Anything goes la =)

Oh, after swimming today, realised that my white-orange wrist band broke. Kinda sad. Guess I would make a new one to replace it! Keke. Missing dear throughout the day =( Haiz... Its only SIX DAYS???!!!! Gosh... Hope Jas is having fun there...

Cheers
ZJ

Lonely

2008-06-04T10:28:00.005+08:00

Lonely

Feel kinda sad and lonely these few days. Its only the 4th day today! RoAR! Just couldnt settle down to do anything. There is no one for me to do anything with anyway. I guess I will try to start on my other book that is expiring soon...

Recently think my temper has been getting short. Maybe its because I am just so damn bored and sianz. Sorry to anyone whom I seemed to be slightly dao to. Just hope that my week-long activities in the coming week will make my holidays better.

Dont feel like going back hall for the time being. Damn extra...

On the lighter side, just finished my lab demo "work". The kids are really quite fun! Mostly JC kids. There are a couple of 14 year old super smart NUS High kids that are really into learning. Very earnest and guai. Guess teaching them will be enjoyable. On the other hand, saw this malay couple from Pioneer JC. I dont know what the hell they were doing in the enrichment camp in the first place. They showed no sense of interest (maybe thats what they defined as cool), and after 5 mins into the exp (without really starting), they just happily hanky-panky in front of everyone in the physics lab. That was so super turned off! Guess teaching these kinda kids will be another experience.

Looking forward to my attachment in fact. End my lobo-ing days and get into some action. Now, really doesnt mind any type of schools. Well, its only for 3 weeks, if I ended up in some type of schools I do not like, its good! At least I know what to strike off. If I like it, even better. Haha. Guess the experience counts.

Shall try to find some stuff to do to feel less lonely... boo...

Miss you
ZJ

I understands

2008-05-29T10:17:00.002+08:00

I understands

I understands... Sort of finally? I am papa's son... Now I start to see a reflection. Understands some of his actions. My strength also my weakness...

Cheers
ZJ

Babybird - You're Gorgeous

2008-05-26T00:38:00.001+08:00

Because you're gorgeous. Weddings are beautiful...

You are one of the best things that happened to me. Love you...

Love,
ZJ

Procrastination

2008-05-21T23:10:00.002+08:00

Procrastination

Today, finally began one of the tasks I wanted to do for the holidays. I decided to stop procrastinating and hit the library in search for some programming books. Well, in the end, I didnt manage to find a single MATLAB book in the whole BM Lib, but happened to chanced upon a couple of interesting books. In an attempt to escape the immense heat (oh, the papers said that Singapore hit 34.1 degrees yesterday! gosh...), I stayed on in the library and started on the book "Procrastination: Why you do it, what to do about it".

Its quite an interesting book by 2 PhD chaps. It started off with saying that he was quite surprised and proud that the publish date of the book was ONLY 2 years past the intended date. Many examples related closely to real life and it is really something that I can really associate with.

There is this rather interesting Cycles of Procrastination... In short...
1. I will start early this time. - Most begin very hopeful
2. I have got to start soon. - Time for early start has passed, but dateline still far away. Chill
3. What if I dont start? - Start imagining all the horrible consequences if he/she doesnt starts
a. I should have started sooner! - Feels remorse.
b. I am doing everything but... - Well, everything but just simply avoiding the subject!
c. I cant enjoy everything... - Mind just too occupied with task at hand to enjoy anything
d. I hope no one finds out! - As times drags on... he/she just goes into hiding/avoidance.
4. There is still time... - Guilt-stricken, ashamed, but still trying to be optimistic
5. There is something wrong with me - Desperate. Horrible terrible fears arising.
6. To do or Not to do. - THE CHOICE.
7. I will never procrastinate again!! - Needs no explanation how the cycle goes back to square 1.

It seems like this cycle is seen in everyday life! From work to friends to every single thing. The interesting fact is that most of us would have known this cycle in some way or another but we just keep repeating them!

Currently one fifth through the book, just past the "Roots of Procrastination". Quite an interesting book. I will recommend it to my friends for sure. We can sure have a good laugh over it. Or in fact curb our procrastination habits!

And though I said I wanted to finish the book, but I still think I will go for a game of DoTA later. Hmm, is that procrastination? NAr... I am rewarding myself!

Cheers
ZJ

Friends (Live) -- Michael W. Smith

2008-04-23T20:29:00.001+08:00

A slower version of Friends performed live by Michael W. Smith. Though a very old song, but still touches me everytime I listen to it.

ZJ

Beautiful Place...

2008-04-23T09:57:00.003+08:00

Beautiful Place

Beautiful aint it? Gonna leave this location soon. Well, at least the room. Gonna go into hiding next semester onwards. Change of focus, change of priorities. Change is the thing thats ever constant.

Gonna miss this year of fun @ Raffles Hall... Wonder what lies ahead...

ZJ

A Pittance of Time

2008-04-23T00:51:00.001+08:00

Choices

2008-04-23T00:22:00.003+08:00

Choices

Suddenly felt kinda emo today. Many things that require CHOICES to be made ran through my mind. Many times in the day, I just sat down and stare blankly. I just cant seem to sort out all the thoughts.

Some choices are really tough to make. Sometimes, situation seems to push you to make a choice that you might not know what you are going into! Some choices are so-called politically correct, but it gonna hurt many people around you. So, what should we do? I have no answer for this.

Its just something that I have yet learnt to master all along. I remember this sentence "... so thats it for my... career...".

I guess at times, people just moves on. Nothing is certain. I also remember this sentence "one day... I realised... has grown up... dont need me anymore..."

Is it time to move on? I dont know. What are my priorities? What are the things I have to choose to sacrifice? I have to decide. I understand I cant have everything...

ZJ

Stress

2008-01-19T00:13:00.000+08:00

Am I prepared to quit hall? I am not sure... Does that buy me more time? I wonder...

Feeling frustrated... Tired... Physically and mentally...

Shag
ZJ

Sad...

2007-11-18T22:44:00.000+08:00

I know you do not like to study, but it is cold hard fact that you are stuck in this for at least half more year. There is no running away but to put in more effort to get through this. Its painful I know.

I tried to influence you, to nag you, but to no avail. I feel like giving up. But, when auntie speaks to me and place her hope in me to help you, I felt real bad. I wasn't doing my job. I had failed. I didn't know what to tell auntie... I smile...

I pains me either way. When exams draws near, as in really near, stress creeps up. Stomach pains and headaches comes. There is no smile on this bubbly face that I know. But, if I am to force you to study, the face of agony stares at each word I says...

What am I to do... I feel so sad... I think I shall leave it up to you...

I love you always, no matter what dear...

Love
ZJ

Bumping

2007-07-14T22:31:00.001+08:00

Bumping

Haven been bumping into old friends recently... Just today... met my unit signaller... Cant really remember his name though. then met my sec sch friend Chao Xing. almost couldnt recognise him with his cap on. Then straight after that met my JC friend Sharon. So qiao. She was going to novena at some church near novena... Oh, that time during CSS camp at TH, also bumped into Sharon. Ha. She still remembered that incident...

Gonna be Rovers Camp tml till Thursday... Getting quite pissed with their organisation. Late dessemination of information, last minute changes, unable to accomodate expectations of councillors etc. But heck, I will just enjoy myself and company of friends, dont care about them le. Dont want to turn it into a pissing contest. My group of 4 siao-on garang (but zero rara-ness) guys and 2 garang canoeing girls seems to be working out well. the whole group is zero rara and 100% chiongster.. (not the clubbing type but the JUST DO IT, MUST DO IT kind...). Hope all turns out well...

Gonna miss going online at noon everyday hoping to catch Jas online... Hope to see some mails in my mailbox when I come back. keke...

And its gonna be Seniors Camp and Room balloting. quite headache, sensitive issue... must try to accomodate others as well... very touchy. Hope nothing goes wrong... tension is brewing... Haiz... I think that my gang will be split up badly... see la...

Love dear... miss you lots...

Cheers
ZJ

Decision

2007-07-12T09:46:00.000+08:00

Decision

Been checking out my modules quite a bit lately. Well, Physics is a rather small corhord, thus leading to them offering higher level modules only in specific semesters. For example, though QM1 is offered in both semesters, QM2 is only offered in semester 2 and QM3 is only offered in semester 1. This could create much of a problem in planning as the higher level modules relies a lot on the lower level modules, thus it is advisable to take the modules consecutively... A lot to be studied into my plans. Another headache struck when I checked the website 2 times within the span of an hour. And, I noticed that they had just updated it! Only big change is the change in semester offering MM3.

Meeting Jiwei and Weihan and Liangwei to dicuss a bit on our plans this coming sem. We are gonna be gay buddies all over again! Hope to pull Guo Chuan along. Haiz... Physics just doesnt have girls ard. My gang girls all also go MIA already. Uncontactable (according to LW). Hope all of us will settle for a few similiar modules. It fun to take modules together!

Quite excited about the upcoming semester. Finally going to take modules out of Science. OMG. I have been taking modules in Science for the past whole year! This includes one cross listed (Arts/Sci) GEM and a breadth (Computing)... Boring life. I hope to get my SSB2216 Employee Management and ES2007S Professional Communication this sem. I must SU my SSB2216 though.

Was looking at my whole timetable and study plan... Then thought that I might have to rethink of whether I want to go SEP on year 3 semester 1. Perhaps year 3 semester 2 will be less destructive to my progression on core modules here. (Since we cant take level 4 modules overseas i think). Maybe can clear some atomic or nuclear physics overseas. Sounds cool. But... that means that if i dont get it in Y3S2... I have no more chance to go overseas?? Oh no... maybe still can hope for Summer Prog that year. Ha. Well...

Now looking forward to getting my OWN NEW ROOM!! No more studying in the dark, no more messy room, no more need to tidy up the room only to be messed up by others, no more need to search high and low for one small stuff, no more smelly fridge cos of rotting longans, no more cans being places ard after drinking.

Looking forward to Rovers Camp. Finally some outdoors stuff. Feeling nua already. Aching for such stuff. But kinda sad that dear isnt ard, if not I sure pull her in. At the same time, feeling a bit sad cos I cant talk to dear for the whole week!! =( Nvm, will bring pictures back and share with dear...

Also looking forward to RH Orientation. I seriously hope that its fun... I hope... Ha. Will try my best to be enthu! But I swear I not go flagging. Sitting at a Mac and chill out... Maybe. Standing out there with a can... totally uncool. No. Ha!

But still... No dear... Haiz... Come back soon dear! Want me to record NAtional Day Parade for you dear? You will be in the air when the even is going on! Haha.

Love
ZJ

No Jas...

2007-06-28T22:39:00.001+08:00

No JAs...

A month without Jas. A special day without her in my arms. I really miss the warmth, miss the chuckle, miss the smile...

No Jas withdrawal symptom...

Love
ZJ

Sad...

2007-06-27T12:04:00.000+08:00

Sad...

I got myself a webcam from IT Coop. Well, isnt too expensive, cost me around 30 bucks for quite good quality vid and pics. Prob a good buy before the GST hike. Ha.

Managed to catch Jas online yesterday. Was quite glad to see her and her room... she looks cheerful. Thats great. She sounds like enjoying herself... But felt real sad... I saw her doze off right in front of the webcam talking to me... Heartbreak...

Waited online last night and today morning. Didnt manage to catch her online though... well... well... On the bright side, managed to catch mango though. Got the notes from her... though i doubt now that it will be of much help. its totally alien.

Have 2 tuitions later in the day... zzzzz. Sianz...

Cheers
ZJ

25th June. Cry at Home.

2007-06-25T20:11:00.001+08:00

25th June. Cry at Home.

Its written on my calender of events for the holidays. Day 1 after dear left for UCLA.

However, I was sooo wrong. It should be 24th June - Cry at Hall. After sending Jas off, went over Changi Water Venture to paddle with the hall peeps. At night, back in hall, felt very sad. There is no sms awaiting me in my phone. There is no one to sms to! There is no one on MSN to talk to either. Doing a bit of calculations. Dear probably just touched down and is still travelling over to the dorm at UCLA. Cry in hall... Eyes red red... (okok, not because of crying but cos of the sea water...)

Just managed to catch Jas online today. Thanks to Jiun Haw. =) So glad to hear from her. But it was a short meeting though. I went off for lunch and she went off with her block people (at UCLA) for some supper. Hmmm, sounds a bit weird but... no thanks to the 16 hours time difference... Ha...

Will be waiting in the morning for Jas to come online at night... Sounds ridiculous but... Ha...

Love
ZJ

Last Week

2007-06-19T00:27:00.000+08:00

Last Week

before Jas leaves... Just had the first of the week long activities. Really glad she appreciates. Hope she enjoys it too =)

Love,
ZJ

Security

2007-05-03T13:56:00.000+08:00

Security

Whats most impt is for one to feel secure. I hope I can provide that. Lets walk together... =)

Love

Friends

2007-04-28T21:53:00.000+08:00

Friends...

Not exactly in a very good mood today...

Heard a comment today from an old pal. A comment that hurt. I am already very tired of this commitment. It became a commitment that I only go for the sake of friends. (ok, that explains my lack of enthusiasm is doning the uniform...) Now, I am even losing this touch... Received an sms... I dunno...

Outings upcoming. Bad foreboding. I dont want to be met in a situation where I would be torn apart... Worried.

Just watch a soccer match between Man U and Everton. Its like so super exciting! A super turn-around! Cool...

Just feeling damn bored... I need to do some things... (Other than study...)

Cheers
ZJ

Monday Blues

2007-04-02T14:06:00.000+08:00

Monday Blues

Just finished typing my previous entry. Also just finished a phone call.

Monday blues. I was really so pissed in the morning. Ok, maybe not piss, but... I dunno. Afternoon... Ah.. Alas.

Maybe I should just try to laugh it off as usual? Bottling.

Monday Blues... Baby Blues?

ZJ

April's Fool

2007-04-02T13:53:00.000+08:00

April's Fool

Had an April Fool joke yesterday. In fact, a couple. First, Kah Onn came over and said he wanted to blow me. Then he came in and tried to scare me, saying that he is in my room and that I should be scared. It is so anti climax and so "un-scary". Kah Onn lousy la. Then he tried to rape me when I went to his room later at night...

Also recevied an sms saying that dear will be back late instead of in time for dinner/show. Very sad. Looked at the tea on my table... Thought that she would like to eat it, in case she is hungry... But, guess it would be too stale by night time. Thus, i ATE IT... But alas! When I was concentrating hard on my 1143 revision... A figure popped in and shouted April's Fool! Well, it was a pleasant surprise of cos. Really glad to see her so soon. Feel so dumb suddenly. Quite bad that I ate up her tea too... Furthermore, its one of those few tea that she will consume...

Gearing up for revision... Hope I can do better this sem. The pressure is on... Its time to... relax! Mugging all the way 24/7 is not the way for maximum absorption! Looking forward to nightly runs, half-yearly movies, weekly volleyball and half yearly badminton session this week...

Quite touched when I saw 2 tickets for a movie appeared in front of me. It doesnt matter what show it was. I didnt even take a look initially... I felt very happy. Its the thought that counts. Even though it foiled many plans on tuesday (like... afternn scouts, then home for dinner, then tuition, then pei sister... miss her, do half the lab report)... but, its NOT wasted. Wasted is a WRONG word to use here! Well, things can always be worked out... Now, I just need to do my report beforehand, like TONIGHT, shift my tuition to 7.30pm instead, then I can go for vball at 10pm! Of cos, mugging in between the weekdays... excited... now... looking foward to tuesday...

Cheers
ZJ

It will never be the same as before

2007-03-24T12:41:00.000+08:00

It will never be the same as before

It will never be the same as before... I thought that I wanted to give it a try. But you failed me... Or perhaps I have failed to take care of you all along. I grit my teeth for a while. It got a bit better. But you gave me a disapproving sign. I took things more slowly... It was better. But, I know that it will never be the same as before...

I am not blaming anyone. I just hope for an apology. I dont want to be kept in the dark...

Limp
ZJ

A Trick

2007-03-12T14:11:00.000+08:00

A Trick for Blog Surfing

Just thought that this might be useful sometimes. When you want to watch a video on a blog but there is background midi playing... isnt it irritating? TaDA! A simple method is to find out the original source of the video and watch it direct! But that somehow is so troublesome for the blog-surfer... and it spoils all the fun of blog surfing. Well, a simple method i thought would be going to the volume control at the bottom right of the windows taskbar, shut up the MIDI/SW Synth component of the volume and max the WAV component! That solves the problem!

Cheers
ZJ

Only One

2007-03-12T13:56:00.000+08:00

Only One

Nice song on my playlist... Only one...

Love
ZJ

Sad

2007-03-12T09:14:00.000+08:00

I felt so tired yesterday. I even fell aslp on the car ride back home... on the bus ride back school... almost everywhere. After I came back, did my laundry and did my work. Occasionally dozing off a bit. But i tried to stay up. At around 10+pm, I finally could not stand it and went to sleep. Kinda sad. Thought that I would get to see her...

Woke up by my rining tone this morning... (but my alarm clock was like about to ring in ONE minute... so... doesnt really matters). Felt so guilty for forgetting to return the card to her. Didnt even brush my teeth. Rushed to comm hall to pass her the card as she's late.

But I felt even more sad. I saw her, but its just not right. Understand that she is fed up with some stuff... But aint I there to help her? I didnt know whats going on... I was brushed aside... She didnt even take breakfast...

Back in my room, listening to mp3s and passing time till lecture. Sad... My player playing 断点, Waiting for you...

Broken
ZJ

2007-03-01T19:43:00.000+08:00

Waiting For You

Dear...

Nice song... I will be waiting for your call always...

Love
ZJ

Chicky Ordeal 1

2007-02-27T06:54:00.000+08:00

Chick Ordeal 1

It was a terrible night. I tossed and turn in the bed for hours before I finally manage to fall asleep (I think). However, it was not long before I suddenly woke up. For god know what reasons... I suddenly felt so refreshed and energetic. But, at a look at the clock, it was only 2am. I knew I am in for it. I told myself to sleep and rest till 6am the following morning. Thats when I have to take my pill. However, everything was against me! I started to feel itchy all over me. I grabbed my bedframe and refused to succomb to the itch. I finally gave up and did a little scratching on my bed. Still, the no scratching of face rule still holds... I continued tossing n turning and refraining from scratching and scratching due to intense amt of itch for very long. I dont know exactly how long it was. Everytime I turn my body, it seemed to rub against some part of the bed and the itch came... Finally, I felt tired after a long while and fell asleep.

It was soon before mum came to wake me up for pill. She nudged me a few times before I woke up. Only then did I realise how tired out from the war I had fought in the night. I told myself NOT to rest at all in the day today... so that I could just fall flat and sleep through the night. I hope things will get better.

Day 2 at home. Miss dear.

Love
Spotty ZJ

Day 1

2006-12-29T20:11:00.000+08:00

Day 1

First day since very long I hasnt been alone. Blasting music in my room again. Fully understand the phrase "Treasure it while you have".

Being alone makes me find things to do i realise. Shifted my bed back to the original setup in lieu of the upcoming school term. No more gaming/ hardcore mugging position. Its now normal mugging position. Also cleaned up the room a bit. Tidied my table in preparation of the 2nd clean up.

Just had volleyball. BG told me that he may want me to play first team. Or perhaps he says I have to play first team due to lack of centres. Well, mixed feelings. I am really really new to the game. Every training, I will be surprised by a few new rules that the seniors suddenly happened to say as a foul was committed. Gosh... I really wonder if I am prepared. My takes and spikes is not really up to standard too. Hope I can try my best. Well, at least I can asnwer to myself for I would have put in my very best. I only worry that I might let the team down. They have a good chance of getting into semis due to a good draw in the prelim stages. Something that Ian said was so true at the circle before we ended, and I shall end off with it...

"If we all really did our best in training, and did our best in the game, but we still lost, so be it. We did well."

Cheers
ZJ

koala... =)

2006-12-12T16:26:00.000+08:00

koala... =)

Cheers
ZJ

Cell

2006-11-29T16:08:00.000+08:00

Cell

A cell when immensed in water, and there is too much water flowing into it, will burst. The cell wall will not be able to take the pressure built up.

A human is made up of cells...

Cheers?
ZJ

A Rip from other's blog - Take good care of her

2006-11-22T20:08:00.000+08:00

A Rip from other's blog - Take good care of her

"please take good care of her. dont allow her to go hungry,send her home,hold her hand when you're crossing the road and when squeezing through crowds in a club, and most importantly make her feel loved.
treat her like a princess despite ur past failed relationships and undeserving ex-gfs. but please dont ever treat her like a small girl becos it is a different feeling from being cared for as a gf."

A rip as mentioned. A rip to keep in mind. A rip to follow and happiness we find.

Cheers
ZJ

Happening Weekend

2006-11-12T21:17:00.000+08:00

Happening Weekend
Had a happening weekend. Went home to have my hair cut and have dinner with parents. My my... what a spread my mama prepared for me. I love mama! Later, my cheeky sister so willingly volunteered to send me back to hall... with a detour to SIS this time round. Well, saw her with carbon, but didnt catch his face though... mixed feelings at the moment.

Came back to hall rather late and had an extremely interesting room session with kh, jk, gc, jh etc... well well, knew that kh is damn funny, but never knew that he can be THAT funny and comical... esp when it comes to talking abt "interesting" stuff.. and oh, not forgetting his fav "whie [2-fingers blow kiss]" action. It has really been long since I had such a good laugh.

Went to ubin for scouts hike recce the following morning. I saw my ex colleages there!!! Saw my ex boss kw, goo, ktcc and gang! long time never see them already... caught up a bit with them but had to leave to do the recce. oh, also saw something really really beautiful!! I saw a blue bird! only later then i found out its called Oriental Pied Hornbill... ubin is the only place with a wild population of this beautiful BLUE BIRD!!! really pretty... Well, it rained halfway (not really rained... its POURED and STORMED and blablabla), and I had to go ard like a china girl... cycle with my left hand on handle (and mind that left hand brake is the FRONT brake. had to do this cos my right hand control isnt that good), right hand holding an umbrealla. omg. Saw a group of NJCians there. didnt get a chance to talk to them. Believe them are from ODAC... well well...

Came saturday and it was a mugging day. did quite some exercises. Glad that I am catching up well with MA 1505. Think I am quite prepared to some extent. Guess its high time to start on my other mods. I MUST DO IT!!!

Cheers
ZJ

Why...

2006-11-09T13:09:00.000+08:00

Why...

Felt irritated with myself at times for always making J irritated... Dunno why... I want my journey to be filled with laughter. I dont want sadness. I dont want tears...

Just felt glad that we are having a very open relationship. Everything can be up for discussion. Everything can be talked through. No hard feelings, no bottled up feelings. Thats good. We will learn.

Exam coming. Hope i do well. Just started on my revision. I feel the RV/NJ-times-mugging-blood flowing in my veins. I am getting high! May all do well!!

Cheers
ZJ

Stars

2006-10-31T01:04:00.000+08:00

Stars

I want to pluck stars... 开心。。。

Cheers
ZJ

Disappointed

2006-10-25T23:42:00.000+08:00

Disappointed

Disappointed and pissed.

Found out things were done half past six. WHY? Why cant people do stuff swee swee right from the start??? Why must people give slipshod work? Want to slack also must slack cleverly. Dont do geh-zhua stuff, but must at least cover bare minimum right? Its our work afterall! Haiz...

There was suddenly an issue of NOT ABLE TO GO TO LESSONS. Pissed off. I have lab tml and I am not going to care about what that guy said. Told Ed abt lab and was given the green light to siam. Well, good news is that I realised I have no bio lab after checking IVLE, so I can siam later. Bad news, I still have PC lab. Sonometer. Argh...

Came back room, realised that I still have 1142 last question yet to be done. Dateline is 1am later. Managed to get the answer, but alas! MasteringPhysics site down. Cant submit answer! Piss! Although I had printed screen to save my ass, but it is still something that bugs me and not off my mind...

Then I open my mail and saw the dreadful mail... 42 results are out. I went to checked. 57%. I sort of expected such sucky results, but cant help feeling damn sad. Then I thought of what big boss said moments earlier, felt even more pissed. Thought of the file that contains the terms-and-conditions above me, felt so pissed and stressed.

Sat down. Realised I have a bio assignment... Wrong.. TWO bio assignment due on friday. Tml not gonna have much chance to do work. So its NOW!

Msn popped up a mesasge from WK. "I have sent you the files. Can you get it done by friday?" I have no choice but to say yes. Project due on 1 NOV. I cant let my members down. ARgh.. Hook or crook...

Murphy's Law. Oh, I should go to comm hall to take a copy of the poem on Student's Life... Nice.. APT.

no Cheers...
ZJ

My my my...

2006-10-22T21:56:00.000+08:00

Ladies and gentlemen, WELCOME to MY show. Oh, I mean, HA Ha, THE show... My my my my my... What an irony... My my my my my... What a scene. My my my my my.

Gonna miss tutorials and lectures this week! I hate it! I want to catch up with my work! AR!!! Trying hard... 发粪涂墙！！！！

Cheers
ZJ

Random Thoughts 17/10/2006

2006-10-17T03:29:00.000+08:00

Random Thoughts 17/10/2006

Liking someone os no about holding on or possessing. Its about giving happiness to her.

Happy doesnt means solely that one is happy oneself. Its about feeling happy when one see the smile on her face.

Good friend is not one who just appear when there is good times. Its about caring all along and lending a shoulder when there is a need.

Cheers
ZJ

我的心好亂

2006-10-14T02:57:00.000+08:00

我的心好亂

任何事情都要讲天时地利人和。。。为何？？？

I want to disappear into the background... I dont know what I want.

Stress. 1142 test coming up. I hate this... Hope I dont screw it up big time...

Cheers
ZJ

Random

2006-10-12T20:00:00.000+08:00

Random

Blasting music. Staring blankly. Dazed.

Strumming guitar. Screaming a song. Let it go.

Closed eyes. Images form. Wander.

Douse in water. Cold. Clear.

ZJ

我的心太乱

2006-10-12T09:05:00.000+08:00

我的心太乱

我的心太乱。。。为什么时间似乎过得这么缓慢。。。

Its just a feeling... Time really pass so slowly. Its only 12th OCT... A very nice date supposedly... But it seemed like ages...

Still struggling with 1142... I just cant get thermodynamics right. Pissed off... Optics seems easier. Glad...

我的心太乱。。。 Think I will stay over in hall again this weekend...

Cheers
ZJ

Friends

2006-10-08T22:43:00.000+08:00

Friends

I douse myself in the shower. Some time has passed. Some things have changed. Some things have surfaced. My friends? Reality? Image is getting clearer, and blurer at the same time. I douse myself in the shower...

ZJ

我们的纪念日

2006-10-08T16:31:00.000+08:00

我们的纪念日

A nice song... Well written... I was really happy.

Thanx...

寂寞

2006-10-08T16:01:00.000+08:00

寂寞

寂寞是什么？我认为寂寞是一个巨大无比的力量。而且，这力量若隐若现，时有时无，变换繁多，不可预料。不只，他诡计多端，常在一个人最脆弱的时候出现，下手，至上夺命的一掌。

但，寂寞也是一个良友。有些人在繁忙的生活里，就是想寻找一点空间。寂寞对他们来说是幸福，是解脱。

Facing 4 walls, sitting down, staring. Inevitably, the world seemed to be swirling, everything seems to be spinning towards something... The mind starts to wander. The power. It is here.

Searching for something to fill up this space. Anything goes. Keeping a rationale mind at the same time. Think what FQ said was so right. Searching for things to fill up this space, if not, everything will spiral inwards, everything will collapse. There will be no way out. You will only get deeper and deeper in. It is almost impossible to get out of it.

I need to occupy myself. There is so much things to do, but there is so little time. There is so much things to do, but there is so much inertia. There is so little time for me to occupy, yet the mind managed to take over some of these precious time. This would only end up in a vicious cycle. Mental. Live life to the fullest? Thats my motto... I have to fulfil it. Never to live with regrets. Thats my slogan. Just do it.

Enough of 寂寞。。。Recently, seen some friends who are spiralling downwards. Worry for them. Mental wise, they have to be strong. Maybe I am too/over sensitive, but I have seen some subtle actions that points towards a direction, but they are forcing themselves to go against it. Its painful, but there is nothing much I can do... Perhaps I can occupy their time? A couple are struggling with school work. I am too in fact... Its a really worrying sight. I understand the stress they are under. CAP pressure. They have to be strong to overcome the initial setback and pull themselves together. Study groups and friends always helps a lot. Really must thank GC for all his aid. Without him, I think I would be crying now... Hope to extend my helping hand to WH in similiar manner... We will pull through bro...

Cheers
ZJ

Chided

2006-10-05T08:16:00.000+08:00

Chided

Talked to an old friend/ buddy. Talk? Perhaps it aint exactly a apt term to use. It was a short exchange of words. I guess we arent in the best of moods. I understands that she is busy, and so am I... but, never did I expect her to say something like that... Felt really sad that TY actually said such stuff... I really wanted to have a nice chat with her, some stuff to tell her too abt the people I met recently.

I dont think I am gonna nudge her any time soon...

Cheers
ZJ

First Test in Uni

2006-10-03T01:43:00.001+08:00

First Test in Uni

Just had my first test in university. It was not exactly VERY bad, but I lost the "feeling" of mastering the subject... Felt so irritated and dejected. Where was the touch and the "thiang" moment that I had last time?? ARgh... Dont think I will do too badly, but surely, its not up to my expectations. Well... This is supposed to be my BEST mod already, considering my other mods are filled with people with lotsa brain juice (much more than me...)

Feeling very low morale now concerning schoolwork. I need to spend much much more time on my school work to make up for the lack of talent in me... Things are all going at such a fast pace that I couldnt catch up at some point of time. I need to revise my 1141 soon. Quite glad that thermo had ended for 1142... Anything that is gonna be built on whats learnt now will be "cui"... I need some time... Hope optics will be better....

Time to sleep. I need some rest..

Cheers
ZJ

孤单

2006-10-01T15:00:00.000+08:00

孤单

我和姐前阵子在聊天时说到，一个人在人生可以有很多个朋友，但是知己有一两个也算满足了。当我似乎以为我找到了知己时，我发现到我错了。我突然感觉到我不太认识我身边的人，一切不知为何那么陌生，那么生疏，似乎是我头次见过。我突然对他们有了恐惧感，我很想脱离他们，我不敢再靠近了。。。

可能WJ说的没错。当你跟某某人好，你就会越容易对他们发脾气，感到反感。一个难以肆意的现象，但对我来说可是一个残酷的现象。。。为什么？？？？

手机，冷冰冰的一片铁成天没响过。。。谁说孤单的夜里我不孤单？到底什么才是不孤单？我还在寻找。。。寻找发泄的办法，寻找不孤单的那条路。。。

Cheers
ZJ
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Lonely Saturday

2006-09-30T21:11:00.000+08:00

Lonely Saturday

Its another saturday. I am in hall again. My house would be empty. Bro and wife may be in. I rather come back hall to do some work. But, its another saturday.

Saturday is a night of party and fun. I am having fun with physics and maths. Saturday is a night of soccer. I am playing winning eleven 9. Its another new saturday...

My guitar string is still spoilt. Sad. I need to keep myself occupied. Taking nap. Tired...

Cheers
ZJ

Losing It

2006-09-30T18:04:00.000+08:00

Losing It

I felt as though I am losing something. Things just aint the same as before. Felt weird.

Sat through a tiring 1 hour session today. I wasnt in the best of moods to be in such a session. To begin the whole session, I was given a cynical comment which prompted me to shut up. I made a few comments later on and was blatently and openly shoved away. I want to get out of this shit. I want to throw in the towel. I am beginning to under what Peijia was saying... I am tired of it. you guys can carry on, for the 2nd time in a few years... But before its official, I will still put in my best, but I will be just a follower and keep all my comments to myself. They arent cool enough for f**king cool Uni students...

Really wanted to destress... Found the new location of the pirated shop. It had moved! Across the street. diaoz... Whats the diff. Got myself a destress game, BUT... I couldnt install it. Pissed off. Really greatful to JH for pei-ing me in the afternoon..

Back to work in hall. Did 1141 papers yesterday. It was so hard! Gosh... How am I to survive??? Thought that 1431 would be easier, but I was WRONG! It was equally tough and took me a long while to do it.. with mistakes... Think I need to destress again...

Yesterday nite did some destressing with DOTA. First time a few noobs play together. It was quite funny. All of us were like doing stupid things. GC seems exceptionally bad mood... Hope he can get over it. Priority... Yeah...

I need to occupy myself. I need to... Argh... What Gen said was right, its an endless spiral downwards if we are to allow ourselves to indulge in mindless and meaningless thinking. Come on... Lets all pick ourselves up...

Cheers
ZJ

The Feeling

2006-09-26T23:01:00.000+08:00

The Feeling

I am having this kinda feeling again. I felt really really sian. I didnt want to do anything. I just want to shut myself up in a small corner, a small room or whatever shit... even a pair of headphones will do. Blast some music into my ears. I dont know why. I just didnt feel like doing anything.

Today just got flew kite by JK and AC in the evening, then subsequently got flew kite by JK and GC immediately after that. Now, just received a message from JW that I have been flew kite tml. What the hell is it? I dont feel like going out tml.

Shut myself up and Mug. With music blasting.

Cheers?
ZJ

Zhanrui's and Lingwen's Wedding

2006-09-25T08:30:00.000+08:00

Zhanrui's and Lingwen's Wedding

It all started at a really really early hour in the morning. All of us woke up at around 4am. Prepared a bit , changed into our "brothers" attire and left for the hotel. Well, still felt kinda sleepy then... Have been watching a lot of those TV proramme where they were showing the bridegroom trying to buy over the "sisters" with big angbaos, answering trivia about the bride etc... but, its never the same when you are actually doing it. There is really this sense of excitement and fun in it! Partly due to the timing, not much noise was allowed and we eventually managed to squeeze in easily. On the way out of the hotel, I saw the most grotesque sight of my life... I thought I saw a cool guy that looked like Jack Sparrow. However, it turned out to be a freaking gross and turn-off trans!!! He/She stood beside the bridal car and kept waving to us! EEKKS!

Thereafter was all the ceremonies... offering of tea to elders etc.... then something unexpected came. Mum suddenly called "Where's Jiang? Come, offer tea to kor and sor..." I was like "what???" When and how did I come into picture, I thought it was a couple to elders issue... boo... Being the youngest if not fair. People wedding I must offer them, next time my own wedding I still must offer them. Boo...

At night, it was a simple and nice dinner. Nothing fanciful nothing dynamic, but its really sweet to see them march down the aisle together, hand in hand. When "Power of Love" was played, and they both entered the ballroom, it was so touching that tears welled up in my eyes. I knew it was a happy occasion, but I was just too happy for them. I held them back. I really really wish them all the best. This brother I knew for 21 years seemed to have changed so much suddenly... Ha...

I am so full of envy...

Cheers
ZJ

Frustrated

2006-09-22T01:04:00.000+08:00

Frustrated

Felt kinda frustrated today. Things just arent going my way. First was lab, couldnt do much before time ends, seems like I have to come back NEXT NEXT monday to finish it up. After lab, was going to central forum to collect my mp4. Then, there are 2 freaking idiotic arsehole that didnt want to move to the back of the bus, and the bus driver refuse to open the back door. freaking hell, was in a damn cranky mood already, so kept pointing at those 2 idiots with outstretch arm and kbkb-ing... Everyone else seems to notice less those 2... Missed the bus in the end. Finally got to forum via bus D. Times booth closed. Damn. Came back hall. Did sets. He finally finished bathing and came. But machiam never bathe like that. Kaoz... Then found out about some stuff... so frustrated...

ARgh... if not for the fine that may be handed to me, I would be doing a whole night of war cry... Gonna do my lab and mastering physics... argh...

Cheers
ZJ

Theme Song...

2006-09-19T02:24:00.000+08:00

Theme Song...

http://www.6rooms.com/player.swf?v=6914&l=227&vid=ijf//mBQfwl/XKcJx2agsw

Been listening to this song the past few days. Nice song, nice lyrics. I am slowly getting over it... Whats on my mind now is perhaps just study... study and study.

Bro's wedding is this weekend... felt weird... so happy for them... but... things just dont happen at the right time for me ya...

Cheers

Refreshed... Frustrated

2006-09-18T02:28:00.000+08:00

Refreshed... Frustrated

Had a 12 hrs sleep last night back in hall after being "chased" out of home. Well, felt really good and refreshing. Managed to settle down and do quite a bit of work. Quite glad that I managed to do up my mind map for ideal gases. been wanting to do it but the moment of inertia is just too large...

However, things just got worse as time passes. Today is just not my physics day. I just suddenly couldnt do all the simple mechanics that I used to do easily!! Why?!??!?! Just couldnt "SEE" it... argh. This is extremely frustrating...

Well, managed to play some table tennis today. Fun! Hope I had a few more kakis, then can train as well... Today also found out about a lot of other stuff... Life is complicated...

Cheers
ZJ

Soothing...

2006-09-12T17:37:00.000+08:00

Soothing...

Had a little time to myself today. Reminds me of the past... I would just indulge in soothing music, stare blankly into the ceiling. Just relax.

I felt better... a bit. But there is still this very unsettled feeling inside me...

Last night, had a short talk with G. Perhaps its just another phase of life? Perhaps. Now there is this SPACE to be filled up. A gapping hole...

Was listening to some chinese music. No wonder they say that chinese songs are meant for lovebirds and their opposite number... Well... Nevertheless, still felt better after some soothing music... Its ok ZJ.

Cheers
ZJ

Confused

2006-09-11T00:31:00.000+08:00

Confused

I went for Science Club night cycling yesterday. Well, it was quite fun. It has been some time I get to do some outdoor stuff and also an outing with my OG. Certainly brought to my attention that there are actually much more 24hr eatery shops around. I was quite drawn to this one at lavender. The music blasting there were actually some Theresa Teng and era music! Damn cool. Well, opposite the food centre were many budget hotels though... Hmm, wonders why....

Been thinking quite a lot for the past few days. Sometimes, things just goes in a loop and I didnt know where exactly I am in the trend of thought. I also tends to get more sensitive I guess... I think I am reading too much into other's actions and words. This is so distracting in work... so tiring in life... I feel like hiding in a small corner. I need some time for myself.. to relax... just to rest.

Nite cycling... I felt weird again. I had the "if only she's here" thought again. WHY? Maybe sam is right. I am not the snap kind. I am more inclined towards the emo kind. But, time had stretched the emo till I am trying to become the heck kind. Indulging in other distractions to overcome the thoughts. Am I...? I hate this feeling...

Too many things are happening at the same time... Trying to cope...

Cheers
ZJ

Yan Teng's Birthday

2006-09-07T01:32:00.000+08:00

Yan Teng's Birthday

I guess she had one of the most special (if not the most...) birthday thus far. She had the omg look when we surprised her at her door JUST before she slept at 2am... and our good old Jack did his guitar+ sing song stunt... And today... Genn told her that she had BO and she actually believed and went for a gooood long bath! OMg omg omg omg omg. We did a "mew" in her room with a nice cake with candles... (oh, this time is real candles... not Yongfeng's hair...) Cy sure did a good job in planning this surprise... An outstanding birthday celebration... Never fail to amuse us... Ha....

Just sat down and chatted... deep thoughts...

Cheers
ZJ

Sincere Apologies

2006-09-06T02:32:00.001+08:00

Sincere Apologies

Today isnt exactly a great day for me. Felt really low in the afternoon. I think my mood was really bad and offended a few pals... Snapped a few times. I guess they sensed that there was something wrong with me too. Even Giap said that he had never seen me like this before since he moved in...

Well, sincere apologies... I will be better... soon. I will learn self control. I will...

Cheers
ZJ

Sets and Updates

2006-09-06T01:53:00.000+08:00

Sets and Updates

Sort of 2nd day doing Sets, aka props aka unsung heros. I guess I quite like the job. Its something really me... doing, organising etc... Hope I can really enjoy my weeks there. Sort of remind me of the days when the Scouts were doing pioneering, or rcently, when we were constructing the spar rack... fun.

Been through ULTBC. It was very slack and zo bo. Well, I guess it serves well as a basic introductory course to some teachers. My group had quite a number of old boys and we were really Nuahz. Thats my "name" in the camp btw... Met some real nice people. Crappy and funny. Can really 谈得来(tan2 de2 lai2)...

Today, also received an sms. . . .. ... ....

Cheers
ZJ

Birthday

2006-08-30T09:58:00.000+08:00

Birthday

Another late entry. Had my 21st birthday last monday. Finally. Come to think of it, quite cool to have my special 21st birthday on then 21st of a month! Well... ... ...

Received many sms from friends... of which some whom I hadnt really met up for quite some time. Really touched by them... Let me try to recall some of them... Theres... Chen Xi, Samantha, Fong Ling, Xiu Qing (oh, she has the same birthday as me!), Grace, Gary, Xin Yin, Judy, Fu Qi, Farand, Fredrick, Elaine, Mamba, Hui Min (was so paiseh when I have to ask her "Thanx! But u r?.."), Jiayin, Yinghui, Cindy and of cos... Lijun. **Disclaimer... This list is not exhaustive...**

Well, it was a birthday spent in a special way as well. Early in the morning, I had a nice surprise by Lijun and we ate up 1 whole OREO ice-cream cake, It was really really nice, just that the proportion is just really too large for 2 pax. And... I received my first present!

I went for my lessons till afternoon... Thereafter, I went to SSA for my ULBTC. Fancy going for a Scouts course, which is commonly perceived to be very boring, on my 21st birthday. I guess I was out of my mind! However, it was kinda nice when my bros went up to the front of the class and led a birthday song for me. Really sweet. After that, I was in a dilemma to come back to hall or go back home. I chose to return to 5-107 due to a more convenient mode of transport. Well, I didnt regret that! After I came back, cheeky Jie Ke went to notify whoever whoever that ZJ had booked in and I was "invited" to supper, together with the other birthday boy Yong Feng. Well, we were totally surprised when we entered the communal hall. They actually had a cake for us! There, I had my 2nd (or should I say third) round of birthday songs... 感动。。。

Yesterday, my dearest Hse Reps from LIGNUM rounded everything up with a Stingray, Sotong, Kang Kong, Bak Kut Teh, Claypot Rice spread at clementi. Its really nice to meet up again. Fun old chaps...

Received quite a few prezzies this year... thanx Cindy for the thoughtful "make-up" gift, thanx Lignum for the "Raffles Polo T" (which is on the way of getting changed...)++, thanx Chen Xi for the shirt, thanx Lijun... for everything... oh of cos thanx blk 5 for the cake! (Well, dont think they will get to see this also... ha...)

Tired... Shall catch some sleep before lecture...

Cheers
ZJ

++I saw someone wearing the same shirt same colour in hall!! Eeks!!

Finally...

2006-08-19T02:16:00.000+08:00

Finally...

It has been some time since i was able to post anything. Well, for god-know-what reasons, my blog was "detected" as a "spam-blog" by blogger.com and they suspended me from posting any stuff! That explains the late posting for the previous entry as well... Finally, they "reviewed" and cleared my status and "apologise for any inconvinience caused". Tsk.

Well, It has been a week since school has started. Life is definitely NOT as hectic as JC days. Thats something glad to hear. In fact, its quite relax for me thus far. My earliest lesson starts at 10am. Thats good as it allows me to wake up at a reasonable timing, go for a morning jog, take my breakfast in hall, and still have some time to laze around before hitting the lecture theatres. Lessons end normally between 2pm to 4pm, with an exception of the lab day.

My mods are generally fine. The supposedly stone-ny and boring physics seems to have some great lecturers! They make me feel quite interested in the topics that they are teaching. Their enthusiasm and urge to bring the idea across via all possible methods (even in LT!) makes me feel the excitement in the course. Maths, on the other hand, seems to have a old and crappy lecturer. Didnt know whats exactly going on... Looks like I will have to depend a lot of webcast and myself already... The people taking the course seems freaky too. Just a look at the stuff they post on the forum freaks me out. Hello... it made me feel like I am only in Pri sch looking at a University forum.

Life after school is fun! Games, food, crapping, music. Oh, not to forget some mugging. Currently having the Inter Block Games aka IBG. Tried to participate in it as much as possible. Quite fun. Thinking of joining soccer and volleyball IF I am able to "pass the trial"... The bones in me are already aching for some action... Ha...

Its 0220hrs now. Time to rest for a GREAT WEEKEND!~ (I hope =P)

Cheers
ZJ

National Day 2006

2006-08-11T10:38:00.000+08:00

National Day 2006

This entry came 2 days late.. Its the 11th today. I was too tired the past 2 days to pen down anything. Either that, if not means the server was perpectually down till I just switched off my laptop...

Well, being in this world for 21 years (soon...), this is my FIRST national day spent out of Singapore! I went to Malaysia JB for a half day tour!!

I didnt started off exactly too good. I guess I am not the only soul who wants to have a short getaway from this city. There's a LOOONNGGGG queue at the custom and it took me almost an hour to clear the customs. The queues were merging everywhere! I think that there should be something done to solve this problem... Perhaps longer queue poles? Think they really works well.

Once out of the freaking sardine can, we headed straight to City Square! Well, its the nearest shopping centre around with reasonable pricing, so... why not? The movie i realised is so cheap! Its RM6 for a show only! When we went in, there were some commercial going on and it states that if we are to watch any show before noon, it would be EARLY BIRD PRICE at only RM5!! Gosh... Where am I to find a better deal... Next time I am gonna go in EARLY in the morning and come back at night, having done only 1 type of activity. Haha.

Food at the roadside hawker is always something I loved. Its cheaper and tastier (mos of the times) and there is always this nice "feeling" to be eating there. Haha. My sister always says that too! Had a great spread of food... Char kway teow, hokkien mee, oyster omelette, chicken wings, otah, popiah, soya bean drink, sugar cane drink... Shiok.

Next up came all the adventourous stuff for me... First, we happily jaywalk across the road and started walking back towards Singapore. Halfway, we realised that the checkout custom for Malaysia is actually BEFORE the bus stop! We have left Malaysia illegally! Well, conclusion is that their barricade and stuff sucks. Any ah-cat ah-dog can easily get out without going through the customs! Nvm... we made out way through the zig-zagging traffic and managed to get back to clear the customs...

When I reached home around 11.30pm, totally shag out, something happened. I was waiting for my house lift when I heard an old grandmother voice from above me calling "ah boy...". I swear its not hallucination... and I was alone at that point of time. My hair rose and felt a chill down my spine. LITERALLY. How I wish for the lift to open right in front of me immediately. I looked up and realised the lift had just descended to 6th floor from 11th floor. Then it came again, with a more draggy tone... "ah boooyyyyyyy......". I refused to look up and stared at the lift (as though it will help to make the lift come down faster... lol). Finally the door opened and I ran in. Just as the door was closing... "AH boy...." Well, I am quite positive it is some old granny living between floor 2 and 5, who is bored that is doing the calling... BUT its the 7th month now, and its just too eerie to check it out...

What a National Day for me. I am sure to catch the re-telecast on Saturday.... Ha. I really enjoyed my day out at Malaysia...

Cheers
ZJ

My Room is NOT a Toilet!!

2006-08-07T10:57:00.000+08:00

My Room is NOT a Toilet!!

Ha! Finally the truth is revealed! My room is NOT a toilet. It was a LAUNDRY ROOM! Well, not that it is much consolation, but its still sounds better than a toilet-convert. Actually, I dont really care about it. I guess I am sort of a easily-pleased person that doesnt really mind the stuff around me.

Yesterday was a rather fun night. We had a mini local gathering in my room... Well, I didnt know how it started... But, slowly more nad more locals strolled in and chatted. Well, it was getting a little too nationalistic at certain times for comfort though. Haha. It is indeed heartwarming to see and meet such people. Well, at least I know that there are people living around me that I really can click.

Well, it was a tough time trying to remember names too... In fact, it was quite comical... After chatting for a long time, suddenly someone took up the courage to surface the "paiseh" question... "What is your name huh?"... Then it came a sudden realisation that most of us dont know each other's name. Well, locals unite eh... Dont know names also can talk... Ha. I set myself a resolution today... I must try to remember at least my own block peeps names ASAP. Say... 2 more people a day? Pardon me... My memory isnt very good.

Surfing the web now... Realise NUS IVLE quite interesting and fun. Round 2A just started. Gosh... the bidding are soooo high! Seems like there is a real need to think through my mods and come up with a plan B just in case... Stress xia. Haa.

Cheers
ZJ

A corner. A small hole.

2006-08-06T13:45:00.000+08:00

A corner. A small hole.

Today is Sunday. Supposed to be out running. Supposed to be out on a beach. I am now in hall. Staring at the computer screen. Today is Sunday.

Lazing around now, the "NUAHZ" mood sure is in. Perhaps later I will go for a run. Play bball as well.

Hiding here in my small corner, hiding here in my small hole. Me.

Cheers
ZJ

Thoughts...

2006-08-05T23:50:00.000+08:00

Thoughts

1. I hate people that are late. I try my best to be early as much as possible (which I often managed to do so...) When we are late, we not only waste our own time, but we waste other people's time as well. Who knows, others might have other programmes on, so here, the snowballing efect will take place and people will get pissed off. I just cant empahsize any furthur on the importance of having a "shi jian guan nian".

2. Frustrated. I just cant string things together. There is no external factor. I checked back with myself. Its ok. But, I dont know...

ZJ

Stayover

2006-08-05T06:52:00.000+08:00

Stayover

Stayed over in school today (or should I say YESTERDAY...) Well, but I didnt return to hall. Just stayed over at science and crapped and chatted and played card games with Peng Koon, Sam and Bao Ting. Well, guess all of us were just too bored...
Later gonna go to Scouts meeting like a zombie. opps... Excited about the badminton later on. It has been a long time since I played. Excited about more table tennis games coming up at PGP.
Oh, and I managed to get myu Gen Bio mod. Excited about taking Bio for the first time...
Life is so exciting...

Cheers
ZJ

Raffles Experience Day 2

2006-07-31T01:39:00.000+08:00

Raffles Experience Day 2

Well, today our group miraculously shrunk from 36 to a small number of 13! I didnt expect my fellow groupmates to disappear that fast. I thought that i was quite evil to think of leaving soon.... (but NOT SO soon..), they were better.... haha. However, the remaining chaps were more enthusaistic and it was better i guess. At least for once, I managed to get everyone's name right. AT least...
Today played some simple games like NORMAL dog and bone, win lose draw etc... Honestly, it took me by surprise that many of the international students didnt know the games. Well, a learning point for me I guess. It was another type of fun teaching them the game I guess. Not so competitive also.
At night, we played some games on a tour around the school. Found the walking rather boring... the games were rather ok-ish... simple yet enjoyable. At least for my groupmates. Some of the foreign students are quite nice to talk to. Well, after all, they are here to have fun as well. I guess... That should be the same mentality of us when we go overseas right?
At night, went to Fong Seng... guess it would be a common haunt for me soon. Evil and sinful... But, I guess I will get use to it soon. Well, I guess I just need to hit the track more often to burn off the extra calories gained... Haha
Programme will only start at noon tml. However, I should be going off for Fac Rag... Also for the run later in the evening... Hope Terra stays fun without the local guys. I think we have did our best in trying to make Terra exciting and funky and crazy over the past 2 days... We will be back perhaps... tuesday? haha. Till we meet again...
BUTT. Be United Today Tomorrow.

Cheers
ZJ

Raffles Experience Day 1

2006-07-30T03:24:00.000+08:00

Raffles Experience Day 1

I had always tried to put aside all the weird opinions and comments that people put forward to me. I feel that it is never fair to pass a judgement on something when you have yet to witness or experience it first hand.
However, I have to admit that I was in a state of shock for quite a while when I stepped into the communal hall. I expected that there would be some foreign students as NUS is a global university. However, I did not expect that MANY of them. The number of the international students is more than local students in RH! Gosh... I had to tell myself to calm down and brace myself for another experience.
Although we may be of the same age, or at least the same age group, I just cant seem to really click with them. There is this lack of chemistry... The feeling is not there. Really. It was a totally different feeling when I was with Cleoprata. I got the "let me out...." feeling this time round.
4 pathetic local boys got together and tried to make some noise and be a bit enthusiastic and appreaciative of the effort put in by the RHOC... but in the end, most of us just felt like leaving for one reason or another.
There was this tribal council activity, where we went around finding clues etc... which was ultimately freaking boring and a total waste of time. I totally did not enjoy myself at all. Then it was followed by a judge and council thingy. Well, it was purely a make-fun-of-junoirs-who-volunteered-event. At times, it may seem a bit funny... but on second thoughts, it was purely making fool of people who had stepped forward to offer their services.
Now I am rather receptive... I still need to clear my 2 sem requirement. I still want to live by my motto of "live life to the fullest". However...
Rather sleepy now. Its 0330hrs. Time to sleep. A long day ahead tml. I hope that I will be more positive tml... I will still want to go for Science rag though... I had given my word long ago... So... Too much to think about... Dont think and sleep boy...

Cheers
ZJ